That is why,
Most everyday I cried.
I cried because I love them,
I cried because I care about them.
Every minute, every second and every moment,
I saw them doing the wrong things,
But I am not tough enough to tell them not to do that.
This somehow made my heart crushes to piece.
I cried because I was so weak.
I felt pain,
I felt suffocated,
Hardly to breath.
My head hurts.
Deep in my heart,
Please, please give me the power,
The power to stop all the nonsense happening around me.
The nonsense that I can't handle alone.
I feel alone,
That I need supports.
I feel alone,
That I need courageous.
I love my friends.
I don't want them to be lost in this beautiful world you created.
I want we together find the ways to your paradise...
I feel useless,
I feel that I am useless for being their friends.
Who am I?
I wish I have a friend with me,
A friend that love you O Allah,
To share the burden I felt on my shoulder.
I am not brave enough to admonish you.
I want to...
But I am not courageous enough.
No matter how long it will took,
I will never ever let you drown in the gayness world you created.
I will try my best to guide you to the right path,
Eventhough it is little,
Eventhough it is light,
Eventhough I am alone,
For the sake,
Of you and me,
In the life hereafter...
I'll try my best...
I love you, friends..
Ana uhibbukifillah abadan abada...